Mostly him.
"Don't do that calm thing."
***
That night, after the boys finally fell asleep, I sat at the kitchen table with my aching arm resting on a folded towel.
Earlier, Luke had reached for me, and I'd had to ask Derek to lift his own child.
I opened my notebook.
- Baths.
- Evening bottles.
- Carrying the boys upstairs.
- One nighttime waking.
Luke had reached for me.
I stared at the list.
These weren't favors. I physically couldn't do them safely.
***
The next evening, I slid the page across the table.
Derek glanced down. "What's this?"
"What needs to change while my arm heals."
He read the first few lines.
I physically couldn't do them safely.
"You made me a schedule?"
"I made us a plan."
He pushed the paper away. "I'm not doing shifts in my own house."
I looked at him. "Then tell me what you will do."
His expression tightened.
"Hope, I work all day."
"You made me a schedule?"
"I know. I'm asking what happens when you come home."
He didn't answer.
I tapped the paper.
"I can't carry both boys. I can't do baths alone. Last night, I tried to settle Luke by myself because you wouldn't get up."
That got his attention.
