Tears filled my eyes.
"I don't know yet."
She looked at Catherine.
"Did you know?"
Catherine began crying.
"No, sweetheart."
Julia was silent for a long moment.
Then she said, "I want the test."
I nodded.
"So do I."
***
The following week felt endless.
Emily called every morning.
Julia sent short messages asking whether I'd heard anything.
Catherine spent hours searching through old adoption records.
And Zane continued calling.
I answered only once.
He sounded exhausted.
"Mara, please tell me Emily is all right."
"She's hurting."
His voice broke.
"I know."
I looked toward the window.
"Did you know Catherine adopted a baby the same year Emily was born?"
Silence.
My stomach tightened.
"Zane?"
He swallowed.
"Yes."
I stopped breathing.
"You knew?"
He began crying.
"I found out later."
"How much later?"
A long pause.
"About twenty years ago."
I stared at the phone.
"And you never told me?"
"I didn't know whether the child was ours."