I sit on the edge of the bed, my entire body trembling now that I’m alone and don’t have to pretend to be strong. My phone sits on the nightstand beside a framed photograph—Deacon at his high school graduation, cap and gown, arm around my shoulders, both of us grinning at the camera with genuine joy. That photograph feels like evidence from another life, proof that we were once something different than what we’ve become.
I pick up the phone with shaking hands. My cheek throbs with each heartbeat, a steady rhythm of pain and humiliation. I can already feel it swelling, can imagine the bruise that will bloom there by morning, purple and unmistakable, the imprint of my son’s fingers visible on my face for anyone to see.
I scroll through my contacts, past names I haven’t called in years, past people who remember me from when I was strong and capable, before chronic illness and poverty and desperation reduced me to this—a woman who accepts being hit because she has nowhere else to go.
