The next day, Mark called again. “Mom, I just wanted to check on you. Are you okay?” His voice was gentle but hurried, like he was squeezing me in between tasks.adf
I smiled and said, “I’m fine, sweetheart. I’ve got my tree up and a good book to read.” He seemed relieved. “That’s good, Mom. We’ll stop by after the holidays, I promise.” Then I heard Hannah’s voice in the background telling him to hurry up, and just like that, the call ended.
I stood there holding my phone long after the line went silent. My heart felt both full and empty at the same time. Full of love for my son, but empty because he didn’t seem to know how to love me back anymore. Not the way he used to.
Later that night, I went upstairs to put away a box of decorations I didn’t feel like unpacking. On the top shelf, I found an old suitcase covered in dust. It was the one Paul and I used when we took our first and only trip to Europe. We’d saved for years for that vacation—Paris, Rome, Vienna. I ran my hand over the worn handle and smiled faintly, remembering the laughter, the little moments, the way Paul used to take my hand and say, “See, Linda, the world isn’t as big as we think. You just have to be brave enough to step into it.”afd
