“Is it true?”
“And you never told me? You let me believe it was just… random?”
Meredith looked at me with fear in her eyes.
“You were six. You’d already lost one parent. What was I supposed to do? Tell you your dad died because he couldn’t wait to get home to you? You would’ve carried that guilt like a stone for the rest of your life.”
The words hung in the air.
“You let me believe it was just… random?”
I couldn’t breathe. I grabbed a tissue from the box on the counter.
“He loved you,” Meredith said firmly. “He was rushing because he didn’t want to miss another minute. That’s a beautiful thing, even if it ended in a tragedy.”
I covered my mouth with my hand.
Meredith walked toward me. “I didn’t hide that letter because I wanted to keep him from you. I hid it because I didn’t want you carrying something that heavy.”
“That’s a beautiful thing, even if it ended in a tragedy.”
I looked down at the letter, and my heart broke all over again as another layer of sorrow crashed over me.
“He was going to write more. A whole stack of letters, he said.”
“He was worried about forgetting details about your mom you might want to know one day,” Meredith said quietly.
I looked at her. For 14 years, Meredith had held that secret. She had protected me from a version of the truth that would have broken me. She had taken my father’s place and then some.
I stepped forward and wrapped my arms around her.
For 14 years, Meredith had held that secret.
“Thank you,” I sobbed. “Thank you for protecting me.”
“I love you,” she whispered into my hair. “You may not be mine biologically, but in my heart, you have always been my little girl.”
For the first time in my life, the story didn’t feel like a series of broken pieces. Dad didn’t die because of me. He died loving me. And she had spent over a decade making sure I never confused the two.
When I finally pulled back, I told Meredith something I should’ve said years before.
Dad didn’t die because of me.
“Thank you for staying,” I said. “Thank you for being my mom.”
She gave me a watery smile. “You’ve been mine since the day you handed me that drawing.”
My brother’s footsteps thudded on the stairs. He poked his head into the kitchen.
“Are you guys okay?”
I reached out and squeezed Meredith’s hand. “Yeah. We’re okay.”
My story was still tragic, but I knew where I belonged now: with the woman who’d loved me and been there for me for as long as she’d known me.
“Thank you for being my mom.”
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